i’ve found myself being jealous about various things, lately. it’s a strange feeling. and, even though i enjoy peter joseph’s ideas and discussions, i don’t think that you can trace all of those feelings to scarcity and a monetary-based economy.

like, when it comes to skill. it’s not that i’m thinking “i want to be as good as that drummer, because he makes a lot of money and there aren’t lots of skilled drummers out there.” it’s more like “i want to be as good as that drummer, because he’s a fucking badass.” so, i’ve been working hard to make myself a better drummer. and i feel like i’m doing alright, but that i can always be better.

different drummers have different skill sets. i know lots of drummers who are very skilled and technical, but they don’t seem to have passion in their playing. it’s like they’re more worried about impressing fellow musicians, than letting themselves be moved by the music.

at any rate, i guess i’m gonna keep doing what i do. i’m just worried that my window of opportunity has shut. i was just talking about this, yesterday. somerset was doing video updates before youtube. we had the nice photo shoot, before other local bands. in fact, we got criticized for it!

when we first came out, people thought we were trying too hard. but, now, every band has a myspace with a giant banner up top (with a professional photo), glossy sounding demos, and youtube webisodes. these days, if you don’t have those things, you’re not trying hard enough! heh.

anyway, i’ve gone off on a tangent. i don’t know that i had a specific point to make. i think i’m just down, at the moment. but, i can turn it around! i always dooooo! hehe.

please, keep your fingers crossed for me!